Colonial Fleets - A Dark and Winding Road...and the light around the bend.

Muffy, I wrote this several years ago. It is not about me exactly, as so many people who've read it have asked; but it is about what we all deal with and go through. Aside from some specifics in the narrative of the poem, this can and probably does apply to everybody in one way or another.

“A Dark and Lonely Road”
by
Ron L.P.

When I look in the mirror I don’t like what I see
A face of despair looking back at me
I dreamed of goals that I thought I could achieve
I miss the life and the wife that I had to leave
Trying to start over has not been easy
Living a tired life, no less than sleazy
I started with a goal and God knows I’ve been trying
Nothing goes right and I end the day crying

I’m on a dark and lonely road
I feel so alone
There’s no end in sight
But it’s too late to go home

Storm clouds loom overhead, casting my life in darkness
I’m alone in the dark; how did I get into this mess?
I tried to break away from this mood that I’m in
But I just can’t do it; there’s no way to win

I’m on a dark and lonely road
I can’t see where I’m heading
I’m tired of the bumps and the bad luck that I’m getting
I’m on a dark and lonely road
And I can’t find my way off
It’s a dark and lonely road, and I’ve had enough

Thoughts of suicide crossed my mind
As I remembered what I ruined, and what I left behind
Then I woke to a day that could have been my last
I dreamed of my life and the wife from my past
I saw a wonderful sight in the early morning light
A feeling of comfort filled my head
As an angel from heaven stood beside my bed
She began to speak and I distinctly heard
Her advice for me, her holy word
She said, “Follow the Lord and don’t stray from His course
Stand tall and strong, like a mighty white horse.
Don’t give up on life, don’t take that last dive
You are loved by God, and He wants you alive.
The light of the Lord will warm your cold,
And guide you off your dark and lonely road.”

Rays of hope broke through the dark
I made a new choice; it was right on the mark
I accepted the Lord; He came into my heart
I asked Him to change me; that was the start
I started my life over when I walked with the Lord
And I went back to the life and the wife I adored
There’s still trouble ahead, but I trust in Messiah
I’ll face perils with a new faith; and life, a new desire

I’m on a dark and lonely road
But my Lord is leading the way
I’m on a dark and lonely road
And He’ll take my fears away

I’ll follow my Lord and He’ll show me where to go
Where the road ends, I still don’t know

I’m on a dark and lonely road but God will lead me off
I believe in His promise, and I’m no longer lost

I don’t know the future, but I know He has plans
I put my trust in Him, and my life in His hands